Considering my current tribulations an interesting and overly coincidental prompt for the day.
I am not dim but wonder if it may be better if I was.
Not in the intelligence sense, but in terms of my spark, the light, I emit, in terms of my opinions, loud mouthedness, feminism, politics, my selfishness and single-mindedness.
I wonder if to save what is breaking I should dim myself and hide.
Not be the “me” I am and worked so hard for the best part of the last decade.
Let your light shine and rise and hide mine as I always did in things between you and me.
Internally yelling at myself….
“ Natalie, that would make you the other kind of dim.”
I will remain and be who I am.
Please try and love me for it anyway.